Wednesday, June 8


A conversation that I had with Life:

Me: I hate you and I don't want to live you anymore!
Life: Stop trying to get upset and ignore me. You never succeed!
Me: Well, this time I have to because I'm totally fed up of you and all the people who live you.
Life: Okay, besides the people part, that thing I can't help with. I'll only defend myself! Tell me only one good reason to hate me and I'll just disappear and let you do what you want. 
Me: Okay, You don't give me anything at all. And I expect a lot from you! That's why I have to stop expecting anything. I hate you already as you always drift me away from what would really give me the best and everything I want. You drift me away from doing what I have to do to get the best. And that's why I don't want to care about you or about anyone who's living you anymore!
Life: That's true. But let me explain why I do this. I'm not doing it on purpose. You know, it's like a reaction for your actions. I never do anything to anyone who doesn't deserve it. People say life isn't fair, but it isn't fair for everyone, so it's fair enough. 
I didn't drive you away or do anything of that crap you say, these are just illusions made up by your sick mind. If you want to do something and get it, then move forward and do it. Don't expect me to give you everything while you are sitting at your place doing nothing but just expecting. Back to the reaction action part; you don't take an action, so I don't give you a reaction back. That's it!
ME: No, I give you a lot! And there's where I went wrong! I gave you what you didn't deserve! I cared though you never or ever will care. I just need to stop giving you anything! That doesn't mean that I will stop my actions. But my actions will never be again to please you. Not to mention that I'll never expect any of your reactions. I'm fed up with you. I'm fed up with expecting you to be good!
Life: Okay, fine! You know maybe this is the solution for you and me. Maybe the reason you hate me is because you do it for me. DO IT FOR YOURSELF. Yes exactly as you said. Do it and never expect anything in return, because everything you do, even if you didn't get anything back, is only for your own sake. And when I find that you really deserve it, you'll get it back, as a reaction but never as an action!

Well, I then had nothing to say, because I got convinced. Thank you life, you always understand yourself well. And let me understand you well too.

Life is as bad as it gets, but you have to keep living it as best as you can get.

The actors in order:
Salma El-Khamy as in Me. (that's me)
Salma Emaduddin as in Life.

Yes, me and Salma have co-authored this written piece. 

Sunday, June 5

I'll be there, I promise

I met her on a very tiring day. It was too sunny and hot and I wasn't ever in a mood to start any conversation with anyone. She was lost and she needed some answers to questions on her mind. I was there and she started talking and talking. I had to help and answer her. And ever since that day I felt responsible for her and she's responsible for me.

She turned out to be the friend I dream of. She came that day to save my whole life ever after. We had a year full of great events and memories together. Then the year after, our story just grew bigger and deeper. And the year after that, things around us began to change dramatically, but she and I never skipped on each other. We proved that true friends can exist together even if they are miles and miles away. And even though our talks and meetings became less and less by each day, but when we had one it was like we have been always together and never apart. And so is the case up till today. We knew everything about each other even though we hadn't had to live it together but it was like we were there in each other's life all the time. 

She's my best friend and the sister I ever wished to have. And though this year that connection became a little less as we don't regularly follow up with each other, but somehow, for me, she gets to know the most major events in my life. And I think I get to know hers as well. And by that I can say that we were never apart and in heart we were too close. And though everything, I never doubted her love to me or I don't think she has ever doubted my love to her.

She's the perfect friend to have. And very soon enough, her day to shine is to come; she'll be the bride of the day. I saw a friend of her planning to be her photographer, and another planning to plan with her everything for the big day and another cheering and writing her happy wishes everywhere and I feel jealous. Yes, I do. But, I won't let that day to pass without me. I won't let myself miss the day where I can keep watching her happy and smiling from deep inside. I'll be there for her, for I know she'll need me. I'll just be there, for anything she needs. I'll take the place of her sister. Yes, I might not be able to photograph her every minute of the day, and yes I'm sorry that I'll be busy to plan for the day with her. But I know that I'll have my special place beside her on that day, the day she'll never forget. And my place won't be just like any other, I'll leave a huge deep mark. And she'll be so happy. But I'll be so much happier. For her! :)

Besides, that's only the engagement party. When it comes to the wedding, I'll literally do everything, just everything for her. And not just for the wedding, but for her whole life ever after.